Anniversary Is Approaching

In a little over a month, I will see my 3 year anniversary since my car wreck.  There won't be any fireworks or celebrations, because there is nothing new to celebrate. Survival on that day was the only positive event surrounding this accident.  Many days I don't even think about this event.  Then there are the days that it deeply haunts me.

In my quest to 'not be a victim', I recently decided to take on a small task that I have been avoiding.  As silly as it sounds to some, others will relate.  My accident - no wreck - (I refuse to call it an accident when the person who is at fault was drunk; that is no accident, that was done knowing that it is not only dangerous but illegal) happened right at dusk, as the sun was setting.  Being stuck in this wrecked vehicle in the dark was extremely stressful.  I have avoided driving in my neighborhood at night - this is where it all happened.  As strange as it may sound, I have just had a problem leaving my house after dark, to drive the same road.  Any other road is just fine; it is just my road I have avoided.  So - at least once a week, I venture out right about sunset, or just after, to make a little jaunt to the post office or to grab a coffee.

I've been doing this for a few months now and I have to admit, it is just as scary as it was the very first time. What I can say is that there is a bit of pride in accomplishing this task, each and every time. 

I came across some info on the web about how to recover from an auto accident with what is called Somatic Experiencing (SE).  I have read a bit about it which seem to be a fairly simple exercise.  Not that I think you can do it all on your own, but definitely a person could utilize the concept if you are not one to go for professional help.  If you go to this section of TramaHealing.com, you can get a great idea of the concept.   

Baby steps.  That's what I can do for myself at this time.  I'm OK with that.

Having a collection of helpful, healing books is a great think.  Sort of like a coffee table collection of books that you can easily pick up at a moments notice.  If you would like to purchase a book that may have good suggestions, take a look at this one.

Crash Course